Changing myself, step by step.

...several thoughts hit me. My mind was insecure, 'cause it couldn't fight it.
And the thoughts scared me, so all I could do was try do control them.
Then this came up:
Vyvienne Long - Happy Thoughts

Happy thoughts, it says.
So I started listening to a little voice inside me.
This voice was calm and loving, and it said "Shh, everything is alright."
It feels better :)

I want to meet new people.
But I don’t want to waste my voice, and time, in a meaningless conversation.
I want to connect with people, I want to make a one minute speech worth a thousand.
I want it to be like a wave that passes by us in the sea and lifts us up in awe, even if it never passes by again.
Will you be my wave? :D

I wish that everything could be deeper, more mindful.
I'll tell you what I live and see.
In my school, the teachers don't care enough to really prepare a class, plan what can stimulate their students do something different, will to form ARCHITECTS (the complete artisans) and not little robots who will keep the wheel or the market on spinning.
The Students? Well, we don't care, we just want to get things done because We need a job that seems interesting, so making money to pay our bills won't be so burdensome. Don't forget the beer on the happy hours.
At the job, people are once again getting things done to pay their bills and maybe be admired for their... I don't know, their discipline and sacrifices?

People just get by, at all.
And this is a system rotten to it's very beginning.

So, again, what is wrong with people? Why don't they put their hearts in what they do?

My perception says: fear.
We think we can't make it. We are never here and now.

So, I've decided, after dwelling on my why's for so long, that I won't be another brick on the wall.
I'm moving on, and I wish to take you with me!

xoxo

'till the next post.